Tired of!

I am tired of people telling me I look bigger each day they saw me. Well I don't really care if I get bigger as  long as I don't ask money from them for food or anything. I don't want to blame all of my good friends and my loving husband who give me food or invite me to parties and dinner out.
I think all I need is the determination and discipline to get fit. And a diet pills are not even my option because I am afraid of the side effects I may suffer after taking diet pills.
I am praying and hoping that I'll able to have time and energy to walk every night to burn calories.